Still Trying!!!

I am still trying to live a healthier lifestyle. I actually have lost about 4 lbs since my last post but I think that has more to do with PMS making me have an upset stomach so I don't eat much, rather than any real effort I am making but...

I AM GOING TO SEIZE THE MOMENTUM...

keep moving forward

There is no reason (excuses) for me to not be my goal weight in the not to distant future.

It is my choice.
I can choose healthier.
I can choose to take care of myself.

I am at a point in my life where the many barriers that prevented me from moving forward before have now been removed.

*I have no more pregnancy weight to gain then try to lose (5 kids is my personal magic number).

*I've had a procedure (Uterine ablation) done this year that allows me to not be so anemic (low Iron) something that, I see now in hindsight, really affected me. Anemia makes you so tired, well my body needed more energy which translated into more FOOD.

*I am trying see how other areas affect my health (see my 'Heroes makes me fat' blog).

*I also see now that I need to be trying to make choices that will support a better life. Stress really doesn't serve any purpose.

You can be aware of a stressful situation without being stressed!

That is what I am trying to work on.

NO STRESS!!

*BEING* stressed won't somehow change the circumstances, in fact, it seems to me that being stressed often hinders my ability to think rationally to work out difficult situations, aside from making me want chocolate and high sugar foods which just leads to more frustration (fatness, not feeling well, and a shortness of cash!). So I am trying to make choices that will allow me to avoid stressful situations, trying to be fully aware of ALL the consequences from the choices I make, not just for my health, but also for my ability to be a good wife and mother. That's the goal at least!!!
I see what I need to do now.
That's got to be the first step right?!

Thank you Karisa for starting this blog that makes me think about what I want for my life and for my family. I can do it!!

Heroes makes me fat

You heard me. Heroes (awesome NBC show on Monday nights) totally makes me fat.

I know you are skeptical but it is true!

I think I have finally made a break thru on my fatness.
(I italicized it to make it look pretty -that is how I deal with being 30 lbs over weight!)

It is time to connect the dots.

Why am I so lame at watching my calories? I do great all day then about 3pm, I just lose it. I totally eat whatever I can get my hands on and I don't even feel that hungry!?! I think I might have figured it out.
I was really awful on Tuesday. So I decided to stop and think about it. I was totally exhausted on Tuesday because I had stayed up late to watch one of my favorite shows Premire night episodes. (It was so good. I love Heroes!) So when I woke up the next morning at 2am (yes you read that correctly) I had a really hard time. Well next thing I know I am eating my way thru the day. (I did eat salad instead of cereal one time in effort to do better but by evening I wasn't even trying anymore).

My body needed the energy

because I had not taken care of it. By staying up late I had not given my body the chance to recharge so it required more fuel. (read: chocolate)

I KNOW that watching calories is 80% of weight loss. I need to have more will power
OR maybe it is time to think outside of the box.
To not just feel discouraged and disappointed with myself.
But actually DO something about it. Make some changes.

Connect the dots

Staying up late makes you fat!!

Early to bed and early to rise makes a man healty and wealthy and wise.
(read: DUH!!!) Obviously I have heard this before but never really internalized it (or just needed to be reminded.)

*Only getting 4 hours of sleep means
*YOU ARE GOING TO BE SLEEPY!
*Which means your body will tell you EAT
*which means the three pounds you lost last week from working your booty off in aerobics was all in VAIN!

Those are the dots they are connected.

I am so glad for DVR. My new weightloss weapon!